breast cancer be gone!!

I just posted this to Facebook. I’ll write more here shortly, and tell you my next plans. Although I just got fantastic news! I’m still in the recovery and healing phase and dealing with daily fatigue, exhaustion, as well as seeking housing, which means a change in geography and community, and eventually, getting part-time employment. 

My most urgent need? Dog-friendly housing. Can you help? Any leads? 


Soooooooo, here’s the GOOD news!! …

 I know that some people have been waiting to hear my results. This is my first mammogram since biopsies, surgery (lumpectomy) and after chemotherapy and radiation treatments.

Just got the results now from my radiation oncologist. 

Mammogram is NORMAL!!! Yippeeeee!!! 




P.S. I share this because SO many of you have been here for me since December  2013 when I first found out I needed an urgent biopsy.

I also share this so that more people will share their cancer stories publicly. It helps others when we courageously share. 

I still have one more follow up booked on June 26th with my medical oncologist. 

And then it looks like (fingers crossed) 6-12 month follow ups with my own family doctor.

Letting Go as a Way of Life

I have let go of so much, and of so many people, places and things, and with more letting go on the horizon. 

I’m getting used to letting go as a way of life. (for now) … and it’s beginning to feel like I am building a new life in my mind at least, bit by bit.

I’ve wiped the slate clean in friendships (offline ;) … and it feels good. 

Friends who no longer fit, I’ve silently (for the most part) said good-bye to, in some way. This is good. 

I let them go with no major kaffuffle or upsets (except for in 2 cases) and I’m finally taking care of me after major changes in who I am, and in my life. 

It’s a lonely path at times, but I trust all will be well in time, with all the new friends I will need, and more.

Letting go, in every area of life, as a way of life, is a path to peace I am discovering. 

In my case, I’ve come to know that one must have the courage to let go of everything and everyone, to reach my ultimate goal … a brand new Brenda, with a brand new life.

I have been through something similar in past in my life, where I wiped the slate clean. 

Long long ago, on my spiritual path, a dear friend back then said to me as encouragement, “It’s lonely at the top. Others will follow, in time.” 

It was lonely. And she was right. As I changed and evolved over time, ventually I gained new friends who were a good fit.

I realize that some people have friends who have spent a lifetime together. Best friends and long term friends. 

This hasn’t been my case. My life has been a life of courageously starting over, over and over again. 

It has not been an easy path. But it has been the right path for me.



My Follow-Up Appointment at the BC Cancer Agency

Finished up with my medical oncologist appointment at the BC Cancer Agency Vancouver Island Centre. (Victoria)

Last time I had an appointment I was devastated with the news of having to come back in 2 months as you may remember.

Well, they still aren’t taking any chances with me. This time, I accepted it immediately.

Apparently I’m not quite ready to be released for 6-12 month follow ups.

I must come back in 2 months again.

And, they are referring me for testing (just to make sure) for the breast cancer gene which wasn’t done before. BRCA1 & BRCA2 Genetic Testing has been ordered. Better to be thorough. I accepted the oncologist’s recommendation to do so. Waiting for an appointment booking now. I think that you see a genetic counsellor first.

This testing is recommended in part, due to family history, with a family members 2X breast cancer, and now bone cancer.

I’m heading to the hotel, Accent Inns and am looking forward to putting my feet up!

At this moment I feel “OK” about the news. My emotions may shift later, but basically I’m thankful they are being cautious and thorough without instilling fear.

Although this is not the news I wanted to hear, I do feel blessed with superb medical care.


Love Your Medical Social Worker

First appointment completed.

Met with my medical social worker at the BC Cancer Agency in Victoria, for follow up and I actually had fun. Yeah, fun.

I think that it’s the first time I laughed in an appointment instead of constantly crying and crying.

We had a great chat and she thinks I am doing awesome and that I have been very resourceful considering all the challenges I’ve been facing all at once.

She was realistic in saying likely I will have a hard year a head of me. I agree.

It may not be. It might be fantastic.

But I tend to think things will be great and then I am devastated when they are not, so I think I am learning to be more realistic.

I need to build an entire new life from scratch so a year may be reasonable.

The hardest challenge next, is to find a place to live so I can have some stability and really heal and move forward.

She said she was proud of me.

Those words, “I’m proud of you,” I realize, are powerful words, that people need to hear. At least I do. I’ll begin to tell people this more often also in future.

She applauded me, and although life has been filled with hard and tough roads, she said I seemed happier and that I’ll “land on my feet” with time.

She lifted my spirits, we laughed together, feelings of loneliness were shifted.

It was a good session. So far, a great day.

Next up, medical oncology.